A Little Inspiration...

My best friend form high school posted the poem below on her FB page today. Her oldest daughter is 19 and my one and only God-child. They are going through some real deep valleys right now....things that make my little temporary, ego trippin' problems seem so small. What a reminder for me to practice much more grattitude for what I do have. I am just amazed and still teary eyed that her daughter was able bring a very bright light into an otherwise dark time. I am more spiritual than religious but I still believe in miracles and they need a couple. btw, please keep them in your prayers. love y'all!

Last Week we threw out worrying, it was getting old and in the way. 
It kept us from being us; We couldn't do things God's way. 
We threw out a book on OUR PAST (Didn't have time to read it anyway). 
Replaced it with NEW GOALS, started reading it today. 
We threw out hate and bad memories, (Remember how we treasured them so)? 
Got us a NEW PHILOSOPHY too, threw out the one from long ago. 
Brought in some new books too, called I CAN, I WILL, and I MUST. 
Threw out I might, I think and I ought. WOW, you should've seen the dust. 
We ran across an OLD FRIEND, we hadn't talked to in a while. 
His name is GOD the Father, and we really love His style. 
He has helped us to do some cleaning and added some things Himself.
Like PRAYER, HOPE, FAITH and LOVE, Yes... We placed them right on the shelf. 
I picked up this special thing and placed it at the front door. 
I FOUND IT- it's called PEACE. Nothing gets us down anymore. 
Yes, Me and My Mom got our house looking nice. Looks good around the place. 
For things like Worry and Trouble there just isn't any space. 
It's good to do a little house cleaning, get rid of the things on the shelf. 
It sure makes things brighter; maybe you should TRY IT YOURSELF.

The Ever Present Silver Lining

I posted this picture today because it describes exactly where I am. The last three years have tested me in everyway imaginable. I became a single mom to a wonderful son and found myself in too many new and challenging experiences to go into in this post. So I just wanted to acknowledge the journey, full of all its pot holes, detour signs as well as the views and wonderful folks I've met along the way.

I know it is far from over as my little one is only coming up on his 3rd birthday but for the first time in longer than I can remember I can see some light piercing through those clouds. And for the first time in just as long I can say I am proud of myself. I have given this new role as provider, nurse, disciplinarian, cook, advocate, protector, Mother everything I've got. And I have surprised even myself b/c I didnt know what this job would require and once I did I didnt know if I had what it took to pull it off.

But today I'm more sure than ever that I have what it takes to care and provide for both of us and even manage to carve out a little time for nurturing my creative spirit. And surprisingly, I have found that when I do that I am actually a better mother. More patient, less uptight, prone to let the little things slide. Even more than that I hope it serves as an example for him to always find time to feed his spirit in whatever way serves him best.

We are now only a few weeks away from making yet another move. We will be staying with my mom for a while in rural NC. The once beloved fast paced of a major metropolitanc city has turned into a rat race and left me a little worse for wear. I look forward to a place where strangers look you in the eye and speak and I'm only a few steps away from fresh cut grass under my bare feet. The sun is indeed starting to shine again and I feel it's warmth beginning to envelope me.